Dear brother Celtkin,
Please accept my prayers for you and the rest of your family upon the death of your Mom.
I don't know what you are feeling but having been down that road personally (both parents and a spouse) as well as professionally (I'm a Lutheran parish pastor in my day job), I know how I felt and have observed the pain in too many others. It was for me a deep open pit. I am deeply honored you were open to sharing this news with your "family" here.
Please know that the well-wishes and prayers on this forum are sincere and heartfelt. We are people first and real life trumps all else.
May the day soon come when you remember your Mom more often with a smile than with a tear!
God's blessings,
Pastor Keith A. Hunsinger aka Ohiophinphan